Tonight

Hello!
Well not quite the day I thought id have.
Ended up watching an episode of Poirot then going to the pharmacy for my partner then we went out for a meal.
Not a restaurant that far away but it was still nice to 'test the water' as it were.
I had a small glass of white wine with my meal and I really feel fine!
Im staying over with him at his parents house and honestly, I feel like im back to myself. If I have a fleeting thought of anxiety or escape, I correct myself that I dont need to go home, im in control of my mind and if needs be I have tablets. Feeling alot more confident in myself! Ive noticed my vision has been slightly impaired, as I said last night with typing and that doesnt seem to be wearing off but I dont mind. Its a small price to pay for calming down and ive taken nothing today :-)

Goodnight all! Wish I tried them sooner

*Please consult your doctor/physician if youre thinking of medication*

Morning/afternoon!

So I do feel a bit sluggish but I woke up with some refreshed enthusiasm and determination. Positive thoughts = positive life. How can I stop having panic attacks if I only think of worse case scenarios and what ifs? I think if I change my thoughts, I can change my fear. Im going to try harder to attack and question worries and then flood my mind with positivity. I cant think like sh*t and expect to one day wake up "better".
Also, I now know the tablets really work. I can take one even two in the event of an attack.
So today the plan is to get some nice foods, movies and head on over to my partners whos feeling quite poorly. Ill let you know how I get on.

You cant have a positive life, with a negative mind.