Hi All,
I went for a weekend away this weekend. I was quite looking forward to it because its only 20 miles away but takes awhile to get there and I wondered how Id get on with the journey.
On the way I did have a panic attack because it was really foggy and we were on the moors. I started thinking oh my god I need to go home, Im going to go crazy the usual irrational thoughts I experience. But I go so panicked I did hit the point where I thought right, this is as bad as its going to get and I couldnt get anymore worked up than I was. When I got to the destination, I must admit I didnt feel better but I got on with having my time away like Id planned.
On the way home I was quite anxious about taking the same route but when I was nearly home I thought strangely that Id like to do it again. I didn't expect to think this, I thought Id be thoroughly fed up but instead I had the feeling that id like to push myself to acheive it again and then again.
I know that if you repeat something over and over again it does get alot easier - my job for example.
So, although I didnt have a panic free weekend.
I DID go away and I Will do it again.
It didn't put me off going away, its sort of reignited the fighter in me :)
Panic 0, Me 1.
I went for a weekend away this weekend. I was quite looking forward to it because its only 20 miles away but takes awhile to get there and I wondered how Id get on with the journey.
On the way I did have a panic attack because it was really foggy and we were on the moors. I started thinking oh my god I need to go home, Im going to go crazy the usual irrational thoughts I experience. But I go so panicked I did hit the point where I thought right, this is as bad as its going to get and I couldnt get anymore worked up than I was. When I got to the destination, I must admit I didnt feel better but I got on with having my time away like Id planned.
On the way home I was quite anxious about taking the same route but when I was nearly home I thought strangely that Id like to do it again. I didn't expect to think this, I thought Id be thoroughly fed up but instead I had the feeling that id like to push myself to acheive it again and then again.
I know that if you repeat something over and over again it does get alot easier - my job for example.
So, although I didnt have a panic free weekend.
I DID go away and I Will do it again.
It didn't put me off going away, its sort of reignited the fighter in me :)
Panic 0, Me 1.
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